Anxious Flux

10 Apr

It’s been a long time since the last time I wrote in this blog ’bout something useful. I better ask myself what I have been doing for all those invisibility from here:

First: working, is obviously took most of my time. Editing videos, arranging events. Office hours: 9 to 6, yes 9 hours a day, what a workaholic country it is. I am realising the seconds passing by due to the bore! I have to take two hours travel to go to the office, and back. Yes, it is four hours in total. The reason: I have to survive, and I was believing at the promise that they’re going to hire me permanently, in this respective area.

Do I enjoy it? Now? Not really, I am trying to calm myself down day by day. I’m about to leave this job due to the reason that I have to be transferred if I wanted to stay in this company. In which I don’t want to, first: I’m going no where out of Malaysia; second: my value is dying here. When an organisation is pursuing no more than just being number one in the industry and nothing else, sorry guys but my dream is bigger than this.

I’ve been applying for jobs in some places and waiting for the calls for interview. Anxious? Sure there is. The time is getting tighter day by day. Am I happy? I can’t say no. I still have a lot to be grateful about. Now that I have time to write this is one of them.

Second: reading. I am still reading several books. The Power of Now by Eckhart Toole, and Leaders With No Title by Robin Sharma is the second one. I love those books, written beautifully with insights about life. I think it is one of the way for us to guard the garden of our mind, to keep it busy doing the right, even though sometimes boring things. Am I choosy with my reading materials? No, I basically read anything ranging from music to philosophy. Every word, contains wisdom that are too priceless to be left unread. I leave romance behind though. Prince and princess stories are too linear.

Third: playing music. This is obviously one of my best wasted time. I love spending time in front of tutorial videos, adding vocabularies to my playing. Choosing the licks I like, tasting the feeling of songs I love to sing. The feeling of loosing a sense of time out of normal routine. It is just lovely.

Fourth: leisure time, it is inclusive of dating and teaching guitar. Ouh yeah, I really do love the first one. To find someone who we really love and do love us back in probably bigger amount than what we have given into relationship is a bliss. Teaching guitar as sharing my small expertise is an opportunity for me to build a great future through somebody else. I’m passing my personal values along the way.

Those are my excuse, and now I am telling myself: NO MORE EXCUSES! If you want to reach your dream to be an inspiring writer: DO WRITE AHMAD NIQI FAUZAN!


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